Two nights ago, I started having intense lumbar back pain. I could not comfortably sit, stand or lie down. My body was an uncomfortable place to be. Yesterday, I worked through it, like I usually do with pain. Then for today, three of my four clients cancelled. That is a rarity, so I cancelled the last one, also a rarity. In the past, I would have gone into a scarcity mentality. But instead, I thought, "Time!" I must start slowing down.
Last night, I did a lot of slow deep stretching, and let myself breath into the pain, and felt it start to unwind. Such a range of emotions I experienced with allowing myself to feel and breath into the pain. I awoke today feeling immensely better, though still sore and tender. I saw my chiropractor and received bodywork from a friend and then went for a walk in the woods, with mindfulness in each step.
I moved slowly, not my usual pace. I often find it challenging to slow down. There is so much living to do! But I only have this one body. This one sacred body. When I experience such pain in this body, I remember how fragile we all are. Anything can happen in any moment. So this is the only moment. The only body. Live it fully.
(I intentionally chose this song because it brings me joy and makes me want to dance like a crazy dance monkey)
Photo credit to Anna M. Maynard